Here's a story about奶子哥's inner trauma:

1. A few days ago, while learning English phonetics, the teacher was teaching me.奶子哥 suddenly felt resistant, resisting while still following the pronunciation. When I noticed something was off, I told the teacher to stop. I sat there in silence for a full five minutes.
2. I've been thinking about what caused that sudden change in my state at that moment. The core reasons are twofold: First, subconsciously, I learned English pronunciation through imitation rather than phonetics (a different learning method). Second, I suddenly remembered when I was 12 learning phonetics; I didn't succeed back then, which made me feel very upset and doubted myself. Due to the scarcity of educational resources (schools in northern China are almost all Hengshui model), if I didn't do well on exams, teachers would slap奶子哥 and verbally humiliate him, leading to even less confidence and creating a negative feedback loop.
3. I shared my past experiences with the English teacher. The teacher said this was a form of psychological trauma. They said that learning phonetics is not necessary; most people learn English pronunciation through imitation, not phonetics. I talked with the English teacher for over an hour about this issue.奶子哥 is truly grateful to the current English teacher for being very patient in teaching me. No matter what I didn't understand, they were very patient.
4. During our school days, physical punishment and authoritarian education, to some extent, were quite mild. What still makes奶子哥 feel very sad is that verbal suppression, criticism, and humiliating education from teachers were truly unbearable.
5. These two completely different English learning experiences made奶子哥 think a lot and also made him especially appreciate the importance of good teachers.