That day I suddenly froze in the middle of my practice.

Many people see my life as very disciplined.
Actually, it's not.
I often go to the gym alone,
Eat alone,
And go home alone after training.
Apart from workout time, I spend most of my time at home.
I refuse many useless social interactions, and I also eat very little of the foods I used to like.
My weight goes up and down repeatedly.
I can never understand the meaning of continuing like this.
Sometimes I sit alone on a bench by the roadside, watching the lively streets,
Staring blankly, often fantasizing that one day I can achieve something. Growth is inherently an isolated and helpless process.
All my persistence is just for show.
I also have a sensitive and fragile heart.